ninja turtles

i befriended nick sparks back in the 3rd grade. we used to hangout all the time. i used to go to his house and we'd play with ninja turtles. and he was really good at drawing. he was probably the best drawer in our class. he liked drawing ninja turtles. he was like a ninja turtle whore.
-and then one day i ditched him. started hanging out with the wrong crowd. and then i became the wrong crowd. (its funny how things line up like that.) now i guess you could say i have two best friends. two best friends i dont talk to anymore. (so i guess i have zero best friends.)
-neal is in prison. he's an alcoholic. he had a pretty long record of various misdemeanors mixed in with a couple of felonies and then they eventually just gave his ass 5 years. i think the last little goof up, he beat up his girlfriend... (i can't imagine him doing that. what a fucking animal.)
-tommy. i think he has 3 kids now. i haven't talked to him for about 3 years. (what a friend i am.) he's been goin with the same girl for about 10-11 years now. she's nice. small town girl. i used to have dreams about her. tabby. while i was friends with tommy i can honestly say, that was the worst part of my life. i was trying to destroy myself. literally, i was killing myself. i'm pretty sure i almost ended up sitting next to neal. i was so fucking paranoid i thought helecopters were following me. and till this day i'm pretty sure they were. (what a life that was.)